How I transformed my life during my babies nap time

Have you ever been nap trapped? That’s me, currently. Rocking as hard as I can, excessive shhh’s and typing this. Feeling, you guessed it, trapped! Then I had a realization (which I have had quite a lot of in the past few weeks.) I have basically transformed my life during this time. Yes, that’s right. I have spent the last several months leveling up my game right here in the recliner rocking my now almost 8 month old, Milo. 

Now up to this point in my life, I honestly feel like I have had little to no direction. Am I doing this, am I doing that? I tried college three times; there is no degree. It’s been TEN years since I last dropped out at Appalachian State. Honestly, what am I even doing? 

Then, we had Milo. A mom!! That’s it!! That’s what I’m supposed to be doing. It feels so right, becoming a mother. And what an all encompassing experience this has been so far. 

The first few months I spent those precious naps watching every single reality show there is. You name it, I watched it. Too hot to handle?! Yes. Love Island? Fawkkkkk, Aaron. Perhaps my favorite, Below Deck. Even 90 day fiance! After several months of binging every episode available, to my absolute horror, I started running out of new content. So I started reading again. Reading turned into audiobooks turned into motivational speeches turned into podcasts and now a mix of all of these, all during Milo’s nap time. 

It all felt like divine intervention or something. Every new thing I came across was more helpful than the last, showing me things about myself that I had never realized before. The walls that I have spent years and years building and protecting, building and protecting… Suddenly there’s a door. And then windows! I still don’t feel like the walls have absolutely crumbled down and I’m standing in a wide open field of imaginary grasses or anything but holy cow! 

One thing has lead to another and now I have goals. Big goals. Not just generic goals that have taken over my to do lists over the years but actual “shoot for the moon” type goals. One of those goals is to be a blogger and you’re reading my first ever blog post, written during….. Nap time. Who knew?